Running Numbers

how willing are you to dig?
might not be a hole,
but something of greater magnitude,
yet you must be cautious

for every shovel-full of knowledge
that you unearth you have to sacrifice

a part of you,
to show them you want it
how deep are you willing to go?
how bad do you want their trust?
yet the deeper you go

the more rocks you come across
making it harder to continue
until one day they push the dirt back in
covering the hole with you in it
trapped alive and no air
you suffer as you try and breathe
but dirt fills up your lungs and your heart stops
your blood thickens and you start to rot
was it worth it?