is anything wrong? or does it all have a meaning that gives the "action" justification. for what i wish to do, i feel no regret or bad feelings about, does that make me inhuman, or just prove that i am human? does it ruin the relevance of these questions if i really don't care what the answer is, cause i don't.
i want to pick things up and throw them back twice as hard. say things to her face to make her cry. i wish to make her feel like shit, give her a taste of her own medicine. i want to push her in front of a moving bus to see if they can stop in time. i want to break her. load so much wait on her back and watch while she crumbles from the weight. i want to push her off a cliff to see how she screams on the way down. point a gun to her face to see what face she will then make, see if she begs for her life, as grand as it may be. i want to rip her tongue out so she may never utter another word of complaint.
and yet, i cannot find the strength to do any of it. my weaknesses stop me from a confrontation, it will never allow me to follow through, but there may be hope.
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first time i read this i thought it was for alicia...
i think i am wrong...
anyway, just wanted to let you know that i read everything you write.
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